Monday 9th October – Sunday 15th October

Monday 9th October – The back room has to be seriously decluttered

The night shift went as well as it could and the morning went w4ell. I managed to get quite a bit of cleaning done when I decided that I would have a look at what I needed to do in the back room.

I noticed that the damp had returned and of course all of the things that I leaned up against the wall were getting damp on them. I moved all of the stuff away from the wall and I started to clear through them. I was able to sort out some toys, baby clothes and a baby bouncer to pass onto Homestart. I am determined to get the room clear and have the minimal amount of clutter in it.

I went for a walk around the woods with Wolfie in the late afternoon to look for conkers. I managed to find three and I got some things to use for decorations for the winter solstice. The woods are great as the work that has been done on them recently has stopped the bikes going around so I feel safe but the thing that annoyed me was that while Wolfie was picking up things to put in the bag he picked up some dog poo. Really do not like it when dog owners do not pick up after their dogs.

In the evening after Wolfie went to bed I managed to get the food order placed and I had a relaxing night playing the computer game.

Tuesday 10th October – I took the twins to clinic

The morning went well. I managed to get some more cleaning done while Devil boy took Wolfie out. They arrived not too long after the food order arrived. I did not get much work done on the back room, as I was so busy working on the kitchen, trying to clear the sides and sort out the food order.

I took the twins to clinic even though I will be getting them weighed tomorrow, as it would be nice to get them weighed there before I go away and I would be able to tell them that I will be away.

The twins are getting on well and getting out and about meant that I was able to get some of my jobs done.

The rest of the day went quite well but the only sad thing is that at the moment things change so quickly in the house form being funky to being really tense and not very nice at all.

The good thing is that I have been managing to get the twins settled a bit earlier at night. I have been settling them at 9 - 10 rather than at 10 – 11

I had another nice night on the computer but I really need to start working out a time where I am not on the computer so that I can get my non-computer jobs done.


Wednesday 11th October - the twins saw the paediatrician

The night shift went well. Elbereth got up early but I still managed to get a nap before I properly got up.

I spent the morning getting ready to take the twins out to the paediatrician. I managed to get ready on time and I took them out. I fed them their lunch on the train station and I was able to get some shopping done before I took them to clinic. I was able to collect my copy of the DVD Lord of the rings trivial pursuit. I am really looking forward to playing that.

I got to clinic and the twins were weighed and measured. It was interesting to see the difference in weight in only a day. I noticed that Elbereth had put on a bit form yesterday. I will mark the new weights in my book as well.

The paediatrician saw them and she was really happy with their weigh and how they were developing. I was able to get some different things so that I will be able to get a wee sample from Malach to get tested. The paediatrician then told me that she would not need to see the twins again as she thinks they are funky enough. I was so happy about that. It is so funky knowing that they are funky again.

I then got a couple more things before I went home. I saw the Star Wars annual on special offer so I could not resist getting it. It looks fab.

The rest of the day went well. Wolfie did not settle off at first to sleep but he settled the second time. The twins settled with no problems at all.

I am going to try and get to bed as soon as possible so that I can get my competitions complete. I have to catch up with my competitions in the next day or two.

Thursday 12 October – Feeling down but in the end a productive day.

The night shift went well and I managed to get ready for homestart picking us up in the morning. I am glad to have managed to remember to pass on the things to them. Hopefully this will be the start of the big clearout in the flat.

The group did not go well though. I am not sure whether I like the new joined up group. I will still go but I will just keep myself to myself and fill out my competitions. I had a lot to catch up on but by the end of the day I had managed to catch up to today’s released magazines. I am very proud of myself.

I was down for a while during the day and this had an effect on Devil boy and I. As we both started to feel better we made up for our fall out and after that I started to pick up and the afternoon went better.

The twins were both unsettled and Malachs eyes looked red and sleepy. I will keep a look out on him to see how he is. Wolfie was also cranky and did not settle off to bed well. I then got the twins settled off to sleep thankfully with no problems.

I then started work on the living room, as it was looking a terrible state. I managed to get it mostly cleared up. I can finish that off tomorrow and I also made really good progress with the kitchen, again I will finish that off tomorrow.

I wanted to start packing Wolfies clothes but the backpack smelt a bit damp so I gave it a quick wash and spin. It smelt much better so hopefully leaving it outside for the next day will get it smelling sweetly again.

And that is that for the day.

Friday 13th October – A productive day

The night shift went well and I managed to get a good sleep before getting up. Devil boy took care of breakfast while I got some jobs done around the house. I also got an E-Mail telling me that some books that I ordered had to be cancelled, as they could not get hold of the books. I was fortunately able to reorder them from a different source. I am really looking forward to the new Star Wars book that will be released in November. Though there are some sad parts to how the storyline that I really hope will happen it will be really interesting to find out how the story develops.

Devil boy then took Wolfie over to his grandmas house wile I attended to the twins and got more of my jobs done (the twins have been really unsettled for some reason today) I was till bale to get a lot done before Devil boy got home and I sorted out lunch.

After lunch I got Wolfie off for a nap and browsed the Internet before going out. I needed to get some things done so I took the twins out.

When I got home we had dinner and I fed the twins their dinner before getting ready to put Wolfie to bed. Devil boy was not feeling well so he did not go out.

Wolfie did not settle at all well though and it was the third time before he settled (I think I might stop his day time nap as he seems to settle better without it) when I got through as I had got the twins bottles ready I changed them and settled them off to sleep. I has been rally nice settling them off so early. It actually feels like I have had a funky relaxing night.

I spoke to mum on the phone. It did not go that well though as I was feeling rather dazed and I was not in the mood for a telephone conversation. I will call her tomorrow and explain.

I am going to make sure that I get an early night, as I am shattered.

Saturday 14th October – Packing for going away and getting jobs done

The night shift went well and Wolfie slept into the usual time. I really must find a way of getting him to sleep till later though as it would be lovely to get a proper lie in.

The morning went well and I managed to get a lot done. I have virtually finished the packing for Monday (I just need a few more bits to go in and then I will be ready to leisurely get ready on Monday morning…I think I will have a lovely bath before I go)

In the afternoon I spent tie between the computer and dealing with the younglings. I do not normally go on the computer in the day but something was happening which does not normally happen but thankfully I was able to manage the both of them.

D3evil boy then sorted out dinner and I sorted the twins out before I started getting ready for settling the younglings off to sleep. Devil boy put Wolfie to bed and tonight as I realised that the twins hardly ever have baths I decided that they should do. I bathed Malach (he was upset at first but soon was enjoying the bath) after his bath I gave him a massage which he really enjoyed before he had his nighttime bottle.

Elbereth though was not happy to be in the bath at all. I will give her a bath tomorrow so that when I go away on Monday she will be comfortable with being in a bath. She loved that massage though. The then had her bottled and settled off to sleep.

I then spent the night cleaning (the kitchen was a right state) and browsing on the computer. I have not managed the earliest night but I am confident that it will not be too late either. I am very proud of what I have managed to get done though.

Sunday 15th October – Preparing to travel

The night shift did not go well. The twins were up lots through the night and as I settled one the other would wake and need seeing to.

I felt very dazed in the morning but I managed to get through. I spent the time working on what needed to get done before going away tomorrow.

Devil boy took Wolfie out to his grandma’s house so I took advantage and had a lovely soak in the bath before he got back.

I managed to get Wolfie off for a nap and when he got up I went out with the twins to see Devil boy’s grandma with the twins.

I am feeling nervous about tomorrow though the packing is going well and there is space for what I need (thanks to the amazing shopping trey in the double buggy)

The only thing I hope I will be able to do is get a good night’s sleep tonight. I am going to make sure that I get to bed, as I need to get as much sleep as possible.

Thursday 5th October – Sunday 8th – A round up

Oops I have got so far behind that I am not sure what I have done…days can tend to merge at times.

I have been very busy recently trying to get ready for my trip to Derby and get on top of my organising and also get on with my anger management and depression. I m getting there but by the end of the night I am far too shattered to concentrate.

I have had my good days and bad days. Some days (like Thursday) was really long but other days pass too quickly (when I have had a lot to do)

On Saturday though Devil boy and I managed to spend some quality time together in the night. We started off by playing Star Wars monopoly. It was really funky seeing the monopoly board and the cards with the Star wars locations on. The only thing that Devil boy noticed that they could have changed was the symbols for go, jail and the free parking. They could have been more like star Wars. We then played the Star Wars trivial pursuit. We finished off the game we started a while ago. I won the game, which I was obviously really pleased about but it was just nice spending quality time with Devil boy.

I am looking forward to my trip down to Derby though. I think it will be good for us all to get away. I will make a list for my aims while I am away. I am planning on getting as much done as possible while I am away. I have got a lot of thinking and planning to do while I am away.

A better day with Wolfie regarding the biting

The night shift went well. Wolfie was back to waking up at 6am but I managed to get a reasonable sleep. I must make sure that I get to bed as soon as possible.

I got up and made breakfast for Wolfie and I. He is really good with eating the porridge that I make for him now. After breakfast I sorted out the twins and browsed the Internet for a bit.

The morning did not really go that well though as I was feeling really down. Even though Devil boy took Wolfie out to his grandmas and I was able to get some jobs done I did not feel any better. It did not help that I had to rush out to get some electric cards as our emergency had run out. I did not even know that it was in the emergency was on. At least I was able to sort it out.

I was in a bad mood for a while after Devil boy got back but thankfully during the afternoon I started to feel a lot better. One good thing that has happened today was that I was looking at the islands on the Internet today. I was looking for the nearest airport so that mum and dad have the opportunity to visit when we get the chance to over.

I did manage to find an airport on an island near the Isle of Skye. I then looked at it and then I had the idea of moving to the isle of Lewis instead. I will need to talk about it to Devil boy but I think this would be a better idea. It would mean that my mm and dad can visit without too much of a journey and 8it will be close enough to the isle of Skye to visit it lots (even go camping there)


Devil boy and I then had to work on the bath as there was something causing a blockage. The water was not flowing away at all. We managed to improvise a plunger in the end and thankfully we were able to get the water drained. The waster is flowing away nicely now. Hopefully it will stay like that.

Dinner went well and thankfully so far today Wolfie has only bitten then twins once. He has been pestering them form time to time but I think it will be a matter of taking each day at a time.

Wolfie settled off to sleep with no problems but when I got out I had to see to the twins. They were quite upset for a while but I was able to sort them out before getting their bottles sorted out and settling them for the night.

All I need to do now is reply to my friends E-Mail and tidy up before crashing.

Tuesday 3rd October – Biting getting worse but on the plus side his manners are so funky

The nightshift did not go too badly. Wolfie woke at 5.30 though. Decided to take the Sith mummy approach. I read to him for a little and as he did not settle I left him. He managed to fall asleep again and we got a very funky lie in till 9am.

Devil boy got Wolfies breakfast while I sorted the twins out. I just pottered about in the morning, getting jobs done and browsing the Internet.

I then went out to get my hair cut. A new hairdressers has opened at the end of our road so I thought it would be funky to get my hair cut.. I needed to have quite a bit cut off but it needed it. My hair looks fab now. I booked another appointment in 8 weeks time to get my hair trimmed again. I am determined to get my hair cut regularly as I think it will make it look really nice.

As it did not take long I went out to the next town to get some shopping done. I managed to order the DVD Lord of the ring trivial pursuit game for a really good price. I have saved £25. I have to go and collect it on Friday.


I got a few other things that we needed and I got three pairs of trousers for Wolfie as he is growing out of some of his older trousers now. They are a little too big for him at the moment but he will soon grow into them.

The rest of the afternoon went well apart from Wolfie biting the twins several times. He has bitten them hard and has really hurt them. I am going to read up soon how to deal with him. Also I am trying to get him to play in his room. He mainly stays in the living room, which is mostly fine but at times I need for him to go in his room but even though nearly all of his toys are there he will not play in his room.

On the good side though his manners are lovely at the moment. He says please lots and says thank you most of the time. On the times that he [asses things to you and you say thank you to him he will answer ‘you’re welcome’ I think it is so cute.

The night went well. I relaxed and played on the computer or a bit before cleaning up for a bit. I also managed to look at as many pictures of the Isle of Skye as I could.

Monday 2nd October – I went to rhyme and time but Wolfie is biting again

The night shift went funky and all younglings slept well. Wolfie got up early but I did not feel bad for it.

I then got ready to take the younglings out to the rhyme and time in the afternoon. Devil boy helped out and I got out on time. Wolfie walked really well to the group so I got there within ten minutes of it starting.

My friend was there who I have been meaning to call around and see for a few weeks. I had a funky chat with her and her husband. Hehe even though it was a rhyme and time group we did not manage to get many rhymes sang as we just relaxed and chatted.

After the group I went around to see Devil boys grandma for a short while. That went well and Wolfie does not seem to be so scared of Devil boy’s uncle. I was really happy about that.

The rest of the afternoon went funkily. The only thing is that Wolfie has taken to biting the twin’s hands. This has been hurting them so I am going to have to read up on how to stop Wolfie from doing that.

Wolfie settled off to sleep with no problem. I was just sorting out some things when I remembered to watch autumn watch on the TV. I think that is really funky. I enjoyed watching spring watch. They were showing the seals on the Monach islands. The islands look so lovely.

Devil boy was telling me that the only island he would like to live on would be the Isle of Skye. I also think it would be funky to live there as well. I then spent some time looking at the prices of properties there. It will give me an idea of what I need to work toward.

Sunday 1st October – New sleeping plan went well

The night shift did not go too badly. The plan did not go perfectly but it was not too bad. Malach did not settle too well in the hall but Elbereth did. Wolfie woke up at 3 in the morning but settled until 6. I will attempt that again the next time that Devil boy’s daughter stays over.

The morning went well though and I was not in too much of a flap and it went quickly.

After Devil boy got back from taking his daughter home he told me that I will not see her again for about a fortnight due to her going on holiday. I had a bit of a huff then as that was the first I had heard about it. His daughter had not said anything (though she only talks to me when she has to) and Devil boy had not said anything. I wish I had have known though as I did not get the opportunity to wish her to have a nice holiday.

The rest of the day went well and the younglings were funky. Wolfie settled off to sleep in the evening with no problem and I had a funky night playing the online computer game.

I stayed calm and attempting something new with the twin younglings

The night shift went well. I did not get a long sleep but I got a good quality sleep so that when I got up I did feel funky. I got a postcard from my mum in the morning. She has been on holiday recently for her birthday. The amusing thing though was that she addresses it to Mr and Mrs. Maybe she knows something that I do not know (I defiantly do not recall getting married) It was most amusing though

Wolfie asked for porridge in the morning so I made some for him. I has been funny for a while and not eaten the porridge that I have given him but eating the porridge that Devil boy has given him. Today was like that again but unlike other times I managed to stay clam and not get annoyed at him. I just scooped the porridge from the trey and put it into his bowl and told him that he had to eat it calmly. He then started eating it properly and ate it all. I was so proud of him and of me for not getting upset with him. I hope this happens again.

The morning went well and when Devil boy went out to collected his daughter and take her and Wolfie to his grandmas I spent some time on the computer.


Just before they got back I sorted the twins out with their lunch and when they got back we had some lunch. The rest of the afternoon went well. Devil boy’s daughter kept Wolfie entertained while he kept going out to the park form time to time.

After dinner I cleaned Wolfie room and sorted t out while Devil boy bathed and put Wolfie to bed. He settled off to sleep with no problems. I think it was because he had not had a nap during the day so was shattered.

The night also went well. I was kept busy with needing to clean the kitchen, changed, feed and then give the twins their bottles. They settled off to sleep with no problems. I am attempting a new sleeping routine for them for the Saturday night when Devil boys daughter sleeps over. They are not settling well in the same room as Devil boy and I so I have put their travel cot in the hall. We will see how well they sleep there for the tonight. It will only be one night of the week.