Off school again

The wee ones had another day off school today. My partner was off college as well. I am waiting to find out whether or not they will have tomorrow off as well.

If they are off school tomorrow I really do need to make the effort and get them out in it (it will be good for them) and as a bonus I will be able to get some shots of them. I would just take them out for a walk around the Den.

It was cute when I went out shopping. A wee Robin few into the shop. It was really cute. I am so glad that I take my camera with me everywhere as I was able to get a shot of it.

Snow glorious snow

We got lots of snow today. It was beautiful to see. There was so much that the school was closed today and later in the day the electric went off. I thought it would be off all night but thankfully it came back on at around nine.

I took loads of photographs in the morning. It really is lovely to see the snow.

Not going well at home

Thigs are not going well at home at all.

It feels like my partner and I have passed the point of no return and that we are only still together because we are still in the same house. I am tempted to ask him to move out but I just do not feel that this is the right moment. I am not sure why but I do feel like if things ended now then it would be a mistake.

However things cannot go on as they are. We are not begin very nice to each other and I especially do not like how he is treating the wee ones. There are times when I just do not like being around him and I know that he feels the same about me (especially given the way how he has acted toward me in the last few days)

I hope that things resolve themselves one way or another.

Another mouse

Oh dear, after finding the traps empty this morning I saw a mouse running around this evening. I have set up the trap. Hopefully it will catch the wee thing.

Mpouse caught

Yay I cought a mouse this morning.

Mice

Oh dear we have got mice again. I saw one tonight, so that confirmed it.

Thankfully I have got mousetraps. I have put some chocolate mouse in it until I can get something proper tomorrow. Hopefully they will catch something tonight though.

Tired

I did not sleep well at all last night for some reason. It also did not help that by the time I had finished cleaning it was getting really late.

Thankfully I was able to get up and get the wee ones ready for school without too much problems.

A lie in and a night off

I managed to get a lie in and as my partner is off to Glasgow to watch a band I have got the night off as well (I do like spending some time at night on my own)

No time off

Unfortunately I did not really get any time off today as my partner was not able to take the wee ones to his mums house.

I did go into our bedroom and work on sorting through some things, so that at least meant that I got some peace.

Very lucky

We have been very lucky today. A while ago we got some new furniture for the living room. Sadly the wee ones climbed all over it and it was not that long before it started to get tattered.

A few days ago my mother in law told me that my brother in law was working as a decorator at a home. they were throwing their old stuff out to make way for the new stuff. They were getting rid of a two and three seater couch as well as a sofa bed. We said we would take them all. We are very grateful that they offered to give them to my brother in law so that we were able to get them.

The two couches are lovely. They are a really nice shade of blue. I do not really like the pattern on the sofa bed but that does not really matter. The wee ones will be able to sleep in it. It is a really good sofa bed and tonight all three of them are sleeping in it. Though I am not sure if that would be good to keep as a permanent arrangement. But it will be good for my youngest son to be in a nice sofa bed instead of being in the travel cot.

Ooh my new CD and DVD

I ordered a new DVD and CD for my Christmas present. I thought I would order them now as I thought it would take its time from Japan.

Well it turned out to be a lot quicker than I thought. It arrived yesterday. Less than five days after I ordered it.

I could not resist listening to the album and watching the live DVD. Both were so funky.

Saturday 13th - Eek, mabe a squek

Eek when I was cleaning underneath the desks today I thought I found something that looked suspiciously like mouse poo. It was only in one place so it could have been something that had been dropped. I have ordered some humane mouse traps to check to make sure that it is not really mice (sadly the mousetrap that was behind the TV has broke). I will also check the one place that I think they can get in to see if it is still secure. I really hope that we have not got mice though.

I did check the broken trap at the back of the TV and the bait is still in there. There is a chance that the mouse was not interested in it as it is old food. Oh I really hope we have not got mice again.

lie in day

I must admit that I really do like it when I get a lie in on a school day. It is nice not to have to rush around in the morning and rush out. Today has also been the first day in a while that my partner has done all of the school runs. It has been nice for a change.

My eldest son has done well at school as well. He came home with a note saying how well he has done and he also had a sticker. It will be god for his confidence to do well.

He is still saying bad things about himself when he is at home. I think he is just saying it at home to get a reaction from us. I just reassure him that he is not what he says he is while at the same time trying not to play up too much. It is a hard balance.

Getting up in the morning

Was quite challenging for me this morning as it took me a while to get off to sleep and the sleep that I got was quite disturbed. Hopefully tonight I will get a better sleep.

I did speak to my friend today in India. It was great to speak to him and he was lovely to speak to. He said he will phone tomorrow. That will be great. The only problem that I had at times was that the signal went away at times so it was difficult to understand what he was saying. Hopefully he will be able to phone my landline instead as that might make the signal more stable. Though he told me that even his wife says that he talks too fast. I really hope that I am able to visit him in Mumbai. I have got some magazines so that I can enter the competitions again. It would be nice to win some money to cover the cost of the tickets.

My partner has been a bit of a pain recently though. While hew has been letting me take time on my own during the day when I have needed it he has been spending too much time playing the computer game Bloodbowl. I could tell that when I got back from the photography club that he had been playing while the wee ones had been in the bath due to the mess that had been made. I was not happy to find my eldest still up when I got in as well. I will be glad when he stops playing it as much.

recovering nicely

Thankfully my son has not been sick and is recovering nicely.

I also had a lovely lie in today. I really like it when that happens. Though I really do need to start going to bed at a better time.

Very Tired

I really struggled to get up this morning. I have decided that I will not get the pictures edited in time to give to my friend this Thursday. I have worn myself out too much last night. I need a good rest tonight. I think I will meditate, clean up a bit and then go to bed. The wee ones will not be going into school tomorrow.

The reason for this happened when I got a phone call from the school. Sadly my eldest son fell badly in the playground and got a cut near his eye. It was not looking that nice so I took him up to the doctors to get him checked out. Thankfully everything was good when he was seen and he was cleaned up and we were able to go home. He has had a sanistrip for the cut but thankfully he has shown no signs of concussion. I was advised to keep him off school tomorrow though to keep a look out on him.

My partner has been off college today as he has not been feeling that well. He will be off tomorrow as well. I do not think I have got what he has got but there are times when I really do seem to feel cold. I know the temperatures have dropped, but there are times when I feel it more than others. Maybe I have got a bit of a cold.

Tonight though I do feel good in myself. I think I still have some way to go before I get motivation levels up again to what I think would be good enough but I am starting to feel alive again. Maybe the meditation is having a good effect. I will keep it up as it certainly is not doing much harm. I am just glad not to be feeling so angry. I really hope that things stay like this for a while.

Monday 8th - Very busy

I have been so busy today. I got up with the wee ones so that my partner could get a lie in on his day off.

During the day was not that busy it was at night that I have been busy editing the pictures from my friends wedding. I really hope that I am able to get them done by Thursday.

Though I am very proud of myself. I really am going to have to keep up the meditation. I really do feel so much calmer today after meditating. Even when my eldest really played up at bedtime (and he really did play up) I just raised my voice when I was beginning to struggle but I did not strike out and I did not lose my temper.

He got himself into a terrible state though at the end. I managed to calm him down but I just wish that he would have listened to me in the first place. Hopefully tomorrow night will go better.

Bad temper

I am in a bad mood about my bad mood. It has got to stop.

I had a really long lie in. I got up at one. I do not like getting up that late though so that made me snippy with my partner (even though what he did was meant to help me) I soon calmed down after that but it was not long before I was being snippy with the wee ones. I just could not stop myself from being snippy.

I have been working on my bad mood for a while and nothing seems to work. Though it does not help that I live with someone who is just as hot tempered as I am. We tend to set each other off.

I am going to have a look online and see if there is anything that I can do that will help. I am also going to start meditating more as well as going to bed earlier. Hopefully if I get a better sleep more consistently then I will not only feel better when awake but when I get my lie in I will not sleep as long. I have to do something drastic though as I cannot go on as I have been recently.

In the evening though I did something positive on the start to becoming more serene. I did the Yoga DVD's that I got at the end of August. I feel good for having done it and I feel great after I meditated afterward. I think I might start meditating twice a day while I am feeling as bad as I am now. Hopefully that will help kick start my recovery.

Not much free time today

My partner was not able to take the wee ones to his mums house today, but he was able to take them out for a walk so that at least gave me some time to do my Japanese lesson and clean up.

I have been really busy cleaning today. I cleaned the living room, properly cleaned the wee ones room and the cleaned our bedroom.

I have also tried something else with my daughter in regard to her taking things from nursery. I told her today that I would E-Mail the Japanese band that she likes and tell them what she has been doing. She was not happy bout that and told me that she will not take anything that is not her anymore. I really hope that it works.

Feeling fed up

Today I have not felt good. Even though I got a lie in.

I am not happy with how the wee ones have been acting. My youngest son has not been too bad but he is quick to get into a bad temper.

My daughter has been taking things that are not hers but she is getting very sneaky about it and she has been acting deviously enough that the nursery think it has become a problem and they want to stop it before she starts school next year. Hopefully we will be able to do that. I have started saying lots of times about taking things not being good. I will keep saying it as soon as a good opportunity presents itself until it eventually sinks in.

My eldest son it being very cheeky to me, well I say cheeky it isn't. It is just rude.

My partner has been driving me mad with how he has been acting as well. He spends far too much time during the day on his computer games when he should be doing something else. I also do not like how he handles the wee ones when it comes to telling them off.

It all got too much for me so I had to spend some time alone in the bedroom.

I just wish I could bundle everyone in a car and just move somewhere else. Though I know you cannot escape your troubles like that. I have to deal with them here before I move. I will miss the school though as it is a really good school. Hopefully when we eventually move we will find an equally good school where we go.

Got shoes back

My eldest was still complaining about feeling ill this morning, bless him. I sent him to school anyway, but told the school to keep an eye on him.

Thankfully by the e4nd of the school day he seemed to be feeling much better. Hopefully the worst of the pains are over for him.

I had a really funky offer in the evening though. I have been posting photographs on Flickr again recently and I have been commenting on one of my Flickr friends pictures as well. He made a comment about listening to the Japanese rock and I said that I would send him some. He also said that if I ever get the chance to go to India then I would be welcome to stay with him and his family. I think that is such a wonderful offer. I really hope that I get the opportunity to take him up on it.