An odd day

Well it did not really start off that way but it has ended that way.

It started off pretty well and I was able to get some jobs done. Then when my partner went out the wee ones started being really cheeky and being really noisy (when they were not running away)

Then my eldest started to worry me when he started saying things like that he was stupid and an idiot. When I told him that he was not he did not seem to believe. He is always so negative about himself and I am really worried about that. He should not be so negative about himself. That is not going to be good for him at all. I really want to be able to teach him about positive thoughts but I am not sure about what to do. I try talking to him but that does not seem to work. I am going to have a word at school to see if there is anything that they can suggest (I have got a parents night coming up) and I will also go up to the health clinic to see if there is anyone there that can help.

I am also worried about my youngest with his anger. He totally has picked up on the anger problems that my partner and I have got. I have got much better recently and I not flared up anywhere near as much as I used to do but I still have to work on it. I do need to nip his anger in the bud while it is easier to do though.

By the time my partner came back it was late, I then got mixed up with the days and forgot about the photography club. This left me feeling a little odd.

When I got back I just spent the night browsing the Internet. Now I just feel bad like I have wasted the night. I just feel strange and listless. I want this feeling to go. I wish I could just take my wee ones and move somewhere else (I do not mean far but I just want out of this flat)