I am getting worried again about the twin’s weight

The night shift went really well. I was ready early and I took the twins through and fed them. I decided that I would not do any tidying up but I would read instead. I do not get much time to sit and read so I thought I would take advantage and read for a bit. I made good progress with the book and I am really enjoying it.

I then went to sleep and was woken up at around 1.30 when Wolfie got uncomfortable by the door. When I went in he got into bed and settled off until around 7am. I am really happy about that as even though he is crying before he goes to sleep he is getting good sleep now.

The twins woke for a feed at around the same time that Wolfie got up. I fed them and I had some catnaps before getting up and getting some breakfast. After breakfast I noticed that the rain that was there when I first got up had started had stopped so I decided to temp putting the nappies out ion the line as they really needed to get dried. I thought I would see how much I could get dried outside before having to put them on the radiators.

I then went through and changed and fed the twins. I read for a little bit before making a start on sorting out the back room. Though there was a delay on this when I needed to have a look for Devil boys train tickets for him to go to the music festival. The twins watched my progress from their baskets. Malach has been in such a bubbly mood. He has been giggling lots and smiling so much. Even when Devil boy and I chatted to Elbereth he was happily giggling and cooing at us. All it took was looking at him to get him to grin like a Cheshire cat. Elbereth was also smiling but not as much as Malach.

I was able to find them and put them in a safe place (that is actually a safe place where I will remember where it is) I then fed the twins and stated work on the back room. I cleared all of the stuff out of the cot and put them on my bed. I then put the twins in it for a bit to see how they would get on with it. They did well considering that it was their first proper time in a cot. I will put them in it for some time during the day so that they can get used to it.

They were quite unsettled today though even though I gave them lots of feeds. Maybe they just needed more or they were not getting enough from me. I then had to start the next search of the day for one of Devil boys computer games. He is going to his friend’s house tonight so it was needed. Thankfully it did not take me long before I found it. Then also the twins stayed settled for long enough for me to get some dinner and upload the pictures from my camera onto the computer.

When I was looking through then I started to worry about the twins and whether or not they wee putting on enough weight. I then started to panic and feet really down for a bit. I even snapped at Wolfie, as I was feeling so bad. I felt rotten about that.

I picked up a little and I gave Wolfie his bath and put him to bed. I am to making good progress with Lord of the rings at the moment as Wolfie is falling asleep so quickly when I am reading to him that I have to keep a look out so that he does not fall asleep while I am reading to him.

He was not crying for long and by the time my bath had run he had settled off. I had a lovely soak in the bath and was feeling better.

After my bath I changed and fed the twins. Malach has scratched his face though and made it bleed. I cut his nails but they were not really long. I have wiped his face though now and it looks a lot better. I have to make out a wee list though as I need to ask the health visitor about a few things. He has a lump on his head that I want her to have a look at, he has a rash on the back of his knees and he has a rash on his bits. Poor wee poppet.


Wolfie then woke up earlier than usual so I was able to put him in his bed and he settled off to sleep strait away. I have decided though that if he wakes in the night like the last time it happened I will just leave him.

Thankfully after their feed I began to feel a little more confident about them. They are having lots of wet and messy nappies and if their weight has not improved enough I will contact a breastfeeding councillor to see what they can advise and if it really comes to it I will give them a formula feed at night.

Devil boy was very sweet before he went out and washed the dishes so all I have to do in the kitchen is wipe the sides but I have to clear a spot so that I have a space to sleep in my bed. I think I will also make sure that I have a quick read and relax before I got to bed as well.