The night shift went well and I managed to give Malach a night feed so I am on the road to improvement with that.
The morning went well and I managed to get al of the things that I needed to get sorted out before I went out to catch the train at 12.40.
When I got to the hospital I took in the bag of first size vests for the maternity ward. I also went into the special care unit to say hello. Malach did not spend much time there but I anted to say hello. I then managed to visit the ward that I stayed on when I had the twins.
I changed and fed the twins before I went through to the clinic. As I have been struggling to give the twins their night feeds and when I have managed they have not been interested in taking their feeds Malach had not put on that much weight but Elbereth has barely put on any weight at all. Though at least she has put on some. I worked out that she is still on the chart.
The appointment with the paediatrician did not go as well as I had hoped unfortunately. She told me that Elbereth has gone off the bottom of the chart again. I am sure that I worked it out that she was still on the chart but had dropped down a bit. I will have another look.
The good thing tough was she told me that the twins are getting developmentally well it is just that they are small for their age.
I got annoyed at her as she was making me feel really bad with what she was saying. I was getting really flustered and I was telling her that they had dropped and that they were gaining weight. She kept saying that the doctor was worried. I told her that my doctor has not seen them since they started to gain weight.
I told her that they were gaining weight nicely except for the last couple of weeks and she just told me that ideally they should have followed the line that they were on when they were born. I then got really annoyed and told her that I thought it was unfair that they were expected to follow a bottle fed chart when they are breasted. I actually felt like saying to her f you and you f’ing charts..I have had an f’inough of your f’ing charts.
It really annoyed me though and I have just remembered something that I could have told her…doh. Elbereth lost a lot of weight when she was born so of course she will not follow the line that she was at birth.
I was in a right fluster as she was telling me things that were the complete opposite to what the health visitors at the clinic have told me. Thankfully she was all right about letting me wait until Friday to wean them. I just wanted to wait until they were 6 months old and I am so happy that I have managed it. I am going to give them some milky mashed potatoes.
I was in a fluster for ages after. I only got better when I went to thank a woman on our street for some things that she has given to me for the twins (she has got twins, an older daughter and step daughter) She went through the same thing with her twins so I was able to chat to her about it and I felt better after that.
I managed to meet my new neighbour. She is very funky. Hopefully I will get to see her more often.
After dinner I went back to see the woman with twins later to pass on to her an extra bag of potatoes that had been accidentally delivered to me with the Tesco order. Devil boy was putting Wolfie to bed tonight.
When I got back I managed to get a lot of cleaning up, get the twins ready and fed, get the bottles done up and spend some time on the computer game that I have started playing again. I am really enjoying playing it.
I also managed to get an earlier night and read a bit before going to sleep.
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