Happy New Year :D

The end of the year is upon us already. The year has gone by as years normally do. Frighteningly fast.

In this year my first son celebrated his first birthday, I found out that not only I was pregnant but pregnant with twins and I started on of my plans to work from home (which I will pick up again once I have got through the chaotic newborn stage) My plans included sewing collages, painting pictures and making candles, soaps, bubble bath etc.

Recently I have realised, well more that the reality is really sinking in that soon I will be giving birth to twins. I still do fear that something will happen but it seems that the possibility is getting less and less and that I need to get prepared mentally for them being here. I’m getting scared now. Not only about how I will cope with the labour (it is not a nice thought knowing that you are going to be in a lot of pain at some point soon) I am also scared about how we will cope with two newborns and a toddler. I am worried about how Wolfie will react to the twins and how we are going to be able to make sure that he does not feel left out. I am hoping to spend as much time as possible.

I have also been worrying about how I will tell mum and dad who are coming to stay that I am not happy about them taking Wolfie away for a few days while they are in the area. I am not sure how that will help us. Wolfie sleeps well at night and I am not sure if he will settle as well with them as he is not really used to it. I am also not sure how it would really help us. I was told recently by a woman who works with the health visitor that it is better that a toddler is there from the beginning as it helps them to bond with the new babies. I just do not want to upset mum and dad as I am sure that they mean well but I do not feel comfortable about Wolfie being away from home as it has never happened before.

Anyway back to the day’s events. Wolfie slept through until 7.30, which meant that I was able to get a really good night’s sleep. Unfortunately it has not helped me feel better and the cold is really taking hold. My nose was running a lot in the morning but as I moved about it calmed down. I was worried about having a very red nose by the end of the day.

Devil boy and I went over to his grandmas house and I saw his mum, dad and aunt before they went back home for the New Year. I wanted to wish them Happy New Year.

I went strait to the train station so I could go shopping. I had some things that I needed to get (Carrots, potty and feeding set) I got most of the items on the list but unfortunately the feeding sets that I saw had sold out so I will have to pick one when I am in Kirkcaldy next Friday for my 36 week scan. By the time I had got back from shopping I was absolutely exhausted. Wolfie did not nap well while I was away but I managed to put him in his cot and lie down while I napped in the chair nearby. Thankfully he was happy to lie for a while I rested. I am hoping that while he did not sleep he did get some rest. He did seem a lot brighter when he got up. He did not settle off too well tonight but I am hoping that he will sleep well as I really need a good nights rest.

I managed to get a hot water bottle today, which is now in use on my lap. I am not feeling very bunged up now. I am feeling a chill over my skin, a little sick and my head is really stuffy. I am also feeling run down so once this has been finished I am going to curl up in bed with a fresh hot water bottle, a bottle of AME, Schloer and a funky dvd to watch.

Devil boy has gone up to his brothers for a few drinks for hogmanay but he will come back home for 12 so we can see in the New Year together. Depending on how he feels he will either stay or go back to his brothers. I know what I will be doing though. I will be going to sleep (hopefully)

Happy New Year :D