Not managing my anger well

I did manage to get to bed early last night. A little later than I had originally planned but it was still 11.30 so only half an hour out.

I got a really funky sleep so I felt great in the morning. The morning went well but as Devil boy was here I got to spend some time on the computer. Yesterday when Devil boy was away I did not bother with the computer during the day.

The day went well but I have been on edge again. I am not sure why but I am getting wound up so quickly. I have been thinking during the day that I am going to plan on taking the younglings to Derby for a couple of weeks soon. I would like ideally a week or two alone with the younglings but I know that it will not happen.

Devil boy’s daughter was over so she kept Wolfie entertained for some time. Her mum is getting married tomorrow so she came around today instead of tomorrow.

I was not managing too badly but I did have a moment while I was bathing Wolfie. He started throwing his toys about and I got really annoyed when he threw a toy splashing a lot of water on me. I splashed a lot of water on him. He got really upset about it and it made me realise that my plan to deal with situations calmly went out of the window. I then managed to stay calm when asking him to clean the toys up, and even though he was not happy I managed to get him to calm down. He did not settle off to sleep strait away but he did settle off without not too much problems thankfully.

I really have to sort out my anger issues and soon. I have noticed that Wolfie is getting a temper on him now. I have noticed how he reacts when he is frustrated. I need to learn a new approach to situations so that he can learn how to handle situations without getting hot tempered as well. I am going to have to have a talk with Devil boy as well as he is also hot tempered.


I have also decided that I am not going to spend any time on the computer while Wolfie is awake. I really enjoyed the day when Devil boy was away and I did not get the time to go on the computer. I got lots done and I felt better for it. I felt worse today for being on the computer. That must stop.

I have just spent the night relaxing and I am just about to change and feed the twins before crashing. I am gong to get another early night to build up on the good night’s rest that I got last night.